Thoughts while shitting

I don't have time to write, but the words want to come out of me. I'm drowning in words full of feelings. What was that that made me start wondering if I like her or not. Where did all the freedom go? 

So it was like at the moment she started making me compromise, I started worrying about and stop enjoy around. 

Or was it just yesterday that I was stressed out, or was it since she showed me her ex-boyfriend and told me that she had something more serious with him than with me that made me feel jealous. But why I didn't realize that she loves me now. Why I'm even worrying about this?

Ok, it might seem like something as stupid as my roommate would talk about, but I'm feeling weird with her, or with me, or I don't know. 

We were tired, and when tireness comes, the feelings go away. 

She showed me her ex and I felt like she was just with me because she didn't have other option. 

Should I just run away?

Do I just need time to myself? 

Meditation will Definetly help....